This morning at around 5:30 am I was up to get chap stick and couldn't find any then sat at the computer to check out our ads on KSL (the spec home and our 5th wheel). While on the KSL home page I read the top stories like usual. Sometimes I just wonder where certain crazy people come from. Is it wrong for me to call them crazy? I also read about more fatalities in car accidents. Like one where 2 kids were killed, 7 and 8 and neither were wearing seat belts. I admit I have been a victim of not putting Frankie in a car seat before but I I crawled back in to bed and was so thankful to be able to squeeze him. (Yep he was in my bed) the smallest things can take them away in minutes and the smallest things can keep them too. I can't even fathom the thought of loosing a child, I am not to sure I am strong enough. So never again would I question the safety and importance of car seats and seat belts. (not that I questioned it before but for some reason it hit me today) Especially when the reason behind it is laziness and or uncomfort for yourself. Would it be worth it? No. I don't feel as though I have ever been much of a paranoid or cautious person but lately my mind has wandered a lot. I find myself thinking about loosing my husband a lot to death and I hate it. Why do people have these thoughts? It is mostly when I am driving back and forth with Makaela. Whether it is a song that makes me think of it or just random thoughts of a bored person driving on the freeway way to often. I also think about my family if they were to loose me. I would hate them to go through that. I also have been a little paranoid lately about someone coming into my house. I have an alarm, why don't I use it? Forget maybe and to lazy to get out of bed once I remember. I lay in bed hearing noises and don't turn on the alarm. How dumb is that? Besides all these fears of being scared and losing family, I have a feeling of sadness to. Having Brianna here for the last week was SO GREAT! I didn't even see her that much but it was almost the feeling of her being back here again. So when her and Nick left my house last night I went to bed really sad and woke up the same way. I had gotten use to it somewhat but for some reason moving to a different state and being pregnant makes it so much harder. So to sum up my thoughts.
To Brianna, Having you here the last week made me remember what it was like having my best friend here again. I know things are best for you in other places so I understand, but I miss you and I think it's not fair. Remember when you were suppose to move back here when Makaela was 9. Too bad that isn't going to happen. Anyway I just wanted you to know how much I loved having you around, it felt like the old days. I almost forgot you had to leave. I can't wait for your cute baby to come, I just hope he/she loves me the way Frankie loves you. Have fun in California I know we will still talk 4 times everyday and I can't wait for you to come back again. I love you and thank you for being the best friend ever!
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I loved your thoughts! I didn't know Brianna was pregrant WAHOO!!! She is going to be the best mom ever!
thanks for sharing!
I guess you have probubly heard about the 5 month old baby boy who died Tuesday in his mothers car after she went into a friends house for 2 hours and forgot he was there. For three days this baby was in the hospital and the poor mother could do nothing to help him. He was completely unresponsive and limp when she found him and tried cooling him down before taking him to the hospital. I fee so bad for her. My daughter is 4 months old and I can't emagine what I would be going through if this were me. There is a possibility that the police will press charges, even sadder. I tell myself each time I stop at a gas station to grab a drink or just run a package into the post office, that even though it seams like a hassle to get her out of the car each time even if I am only going to be a minute, you can always get distracted and forget about that precious child in the back seat.
That was the sweetest post to bree. What a great sister you are!
Don't you know that pregnant people are emotional! Way to make me cry like a baby! Thanks for the letter sista, it was really nice. I will make sure my baby loves you even though it won't see you alot...Frankie doesn't see me alot and still thinks I'm the bomb. Iwasn't really sad to move here until I got here...now it seems crazy. It took eight hours and I really doubt you'll be driving that far just to see me. Plane tickets out of Vegas aren't that much though.
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